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31 March 2006
Pour Away
It was raining cats and dogs when I left the office.
It was raining cats and dogs when I left the office yesterday.
Yesterday, I bought an umbrella to combat that rain. By the time the mrt drew into Buona Vista station, it'd stopped raining. My brand-new umbrella is still as yet untainted.
Today, I decided I'd try my luck and perhaps I'd not need an umbrella by the time I got back as it were yesterday. So I did not buy an umbrella because to do so would look stupid.
At Redhill, the sky looked moody but still dry. At Queenstown I saw droplets on the windows. At Commonwealth it has progressed to a drizzle. By the time we're at Buona Vista, the trend looks like it's only gonna get worse.
So here I sit, drenched.
While the sky clears outside.
What's happened??? I used to be sunshine girl. If not, then at least I'm prepared. It's been rare that I've been caught out in the rain. Prided myself on being heaven's child. Me indoors, rain outdoors. Me outdoors, rain no more.
And I always carried around a small umbrella. But I lost it. And my luck's been biding out on me.
Is this to be my fate going forward? Nothing's really going smoothly. All but the home/romantic fronts. But perhaps that's all that matters.
Perhaps I should count my blessings instead of focussing on all the stumbleblocks in my way nowadays.
Perhaps.
For now, I'd go dry my hair and take a much-needed shower.
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28 March 2006
Patience!
Patience! Patience! The world is a vast and ghastly
intricacy of mechanism, and one has to be very wary,
not to get mangled by it.
~ taken from "Lady Chatterley's Lover" by D.H. Lawrence
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27 March 2006
Overheard in the Bus (Again!)
Place: on the bus home just now
Leading actress: 1 of 2 girls standing beside the seat I'm in - henceforth known as Screechy-Voiced Girl (SVG) [think finger nails on chalkboard]
Supporting actress: SVG's poor friend (SPF)
And Action!
{The guy sitting beside me stood up, vacating the seat.}
SVG: wanna sit?
SPF: 不用. short distance only, right?
SVG: yea. 你知道hor... 那天我去interview right? i was carrying so much stuff and 那个bus 的人都没有让位给我。
SPF: ...
SVG: 他们还跟我抢seat leh! 真过分！我拿那么多东西有多重 你知道吗？then when only 1 stop left 有个位子我不管就坐下去了。
SPF: ... ....
SVG: 我下车时 i glared at all of them!
SPF: ... .... ...
The End
I don't get it! What the fuck is wrong with these people? Why must they always be right? Why is it that they think they have a special right to anything at all? So what if she is carrying a lot of things? For your info, she's a perfectly healthy girl in her early twenties. How much stuff will you carry to an interview? Even if she is what makes her think she deserves the seat more than anyone else? Did she somehow pay for a special "First Class" ticket that entitles her to a seat on the bus?
And she had the audacity to glare at them thereby implying that they're somehow in the wrong. What bullshit! If someone offers her a seat or let her have an empty seat first then they're doing her a favour. It's not as if they "owe" her a seat. Just because she feels that she should be given a seat because she's carrying a lot of things doesn't mean others are obliged to do that. Please! Who is she to judge that she is in a more disadvantaged position than the others?
The other people could be:
* ankle hurting
* extremely tired after walking the whole day
* weak ankle/knee/legs
* rheumatic
* feeling faint
* similarly carrying heavy stuff
etc. etc. etc.
Even if all the above are wrong, then it's her own fault that she 抢输了。Who can she blame but herself? Since she's neither elderly, disabled, pregnant nor beladen with child, Why should anyone give up the seat for a perfectly able girl who happens to be carrying a bag/bags. Sore loser.
One might ask: What gives me the right to judge her? None. Except
I'm not harming her since I don't think she'd know - no specifics about her looks (frankly I didn't even get a good look at her), no photo of course, no names, nothing. And my blog's not so popular. And of course, she's no friend of mine.
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My Very Own Darkly Gothic Poem
what have you done to me?
a miasma of betrayal as perceptions scream.
once we were together in innocence,
open and wide-eyed,
but your thirst soured.
a sickening morass of lies -
tears follow pain, follow bitterness,
love ground to dust.
in a torrent of sorrow,
i condemn you.
found this Goth-O-MaticTM Poetry Generator and tried it out for fun. doesn't rhyme at all! but it's got a nice dark ring to it, i thought. how's it sound to you? ;)
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24 March 2006
Food Notes
1) Harry's at Orchard Towers has the most amazing lamb chops.
2) Pasir Ris Ave 4 Blk 404 - supposedly the best crabs in sg. Must try sometimes. Not to go on weekends - bloody crowded.
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23 March 2006
Nothing. Nothing at all.
Back from Phuket. Decent trip. Not crazy about the place but liked the R&R with my dearie.
I feel like blogging but realise I've nothing to write. I don't know what to write. Don't feel like whining. Don't feel like grunting about my continuing state of stagnation. Don't feel like explaining while constantly having to censor myself so I don't write about work.
But I feel like writing. Only, I've nothing to write about.
So.
So I write this. Just for the hell of it.
At least I wrote something.
Some words.
Hahaha.
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14 March 2006
Glorious Pain
Today's the first time I've been to a body combat class in nearly a year. And it feels great!
I anticipate muscle aches tomorrow. In fact I'm feeling the initial onslaught of them right now. And I've barely recovered from those sustained from last Friday's cardio shape (which I sucked at - my step coordination's atrocious!)
But this - body combat - is something I can do without messing up and constanting find myself facing the wrong direction from the rest of the class. Really enjoyed it. Let out all those frustrations and pent-up energy.
Hai!
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13 March 2006
The Bitch-Goddess
Success.
"Success, the bitch-goddess,... ... , that was a permanent necessity. You couldn't spend your last sou, and say finally: So that's that! No, if you lived even another ten minutes, you wanted a few more sous for something or other. Just to keep the business mechanically going, you needed money. You had to have it. Money you have to have. You needn't really have anything else. So that's that!
Since, of course, it's not your own fault you are alive. Once you are alive, money is a necessity, and the only absolute necessity. All the rest you can get along without, at a pinch. But not money. Emphatically, that's that!"
Prostitution.
"The bitch-goddess! Well, if one had to prostitute oneself, let it be to a bitch-goddess! One could always despise her even while one prostituted oneself to her, which was good. "
Appetites...
"He realized now that the bitch-goddess of Success had two main appetites: one for flattery, adulation, stroking and tickling such as writers and artists gave her; but the other a grimmer appetite for meat and bones. And the meat and bones for the bitch-goddess were provided by the men who made money in industry.
Yes, there were two great groups of dogs wrangling for the bitch-goddess: the group of the flatterers, those who offered her amusement, stories, films, plays: and the other, much less showy, much more savage breed, those who gave her meat, the real substance of money. The well-groomed showy dogs of amusement wrangled and snarled among themselves for the favours of the bitch-goddess. But it was nothing to the silent fight-to-the-death that went on among the indispensables, the bone-bringers."
Whores we are. All of us.
~ taken from "Lady Chatterley's Lover" by D.H. Lawrence
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10 March 2006
Lady Chatterley Says...
"Ours is essentially a tragic age, so we refuse to take it tragically. The cataclysm has happened, we are among the ruins, we start to build up new little habitats, to have new little hopes. It is rather hard work: there is now no smooth road into the future: but we go round, or scramble over the obstacles. We've got to live, no matter how many skies have fallen."
~ D.H. Lawrence - opening paragraph of "Lady Chatterley's Lover"
Beautiful, ain't it?
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09 March 2006
Brokeback Mountain
When: 8 Mar 2006 (Wednesday)
Where: GV Marina
What: Drama, Romance & Western
Synopsis: An epic love story, set against the sweeping landscapes of Wyoming and Texas, that tells the story of two young men--a ranch-hand and a rodeo cowboy--who meet in the summer of 1963 while driving cattle on a mountain range. They unexpectedly forge a lifelong connection, one whose complications, joys and tragedies provide a testament to the endurance and power of love.
My take: There's been so much hype about this I've wanted to watch it for the longest time! Finally arranged to watch it last night - despite nearly not making it, after what happened and what not... But glad we did because it was nice. I thought the pace was a bit slow, but not too draggy and generally rather touching, especially the part when he first discovered the blood stained shirts hung together... and at the end when we see that he kept the shirts but this time, with the white one outside and the blue inside. Its intimation was subtle but resounding. And very heart-rending...
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08 March 2006
That's it.
I have no idea what's meant for me anymore. Or what I'm meant for.
Didn't know it's possible for me to get any more confused.
I was pissed off earlier in the evening, but now... I'm just confused.
Confused. Confused. Confused.
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03 March 2006
Decisions & Horoscopes
Just when I'm mulling over another possibility. A possibility that I've been slowly letting go of. That I've been readying myself to give up. It rears its head again. And tonight, I see this in my mailbox.
Here is your horoscope
for Friday, March 3::
Are you moving in the right direction? Ask yourself if you're holding true to your beliefs, or if you feel like your life is an unending series of unsatisfying compromises. It's time to make choices to better your life.
This is sssssooooooooo irritating!
And so creepy...
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